Ajari aku

Mama, ajari aku cara untuk tidak berharap. Pada apa-apa yang bukan tempatnya aku meminta. 

Mama, ajari aku cara mengusai kepingan yang telah jatuh. Mengusai kasih yang kemarin diam-diam tumbuh. 

Mama, ajari aku cara melepas ikhlas perkara nanti. Terhadap apa yang belum dimulai, tapi perlu dikondisikan biar tak semakin menjadi. 

Mama, ajari aku cara merawat tenang. Atas segala kuasa dan takdir. Atas semua isi hati dan pikir.

Mama, ajari aku cara tak menjadi bodoh. Untuk memegang prinsip nilai tanpa goyah, demikian kokoh. 

Mama, ajari aku cara mencari lugas dan jelas. Memilih apa yang santun, baik dan pantas. 

Mama, ajari aku cara bergerilya dalam doa. Sebab di samping usaha, itulah caraku satu-satunya.

Semoga takdir-takdir baik tengah berjalan menghampiri kita. 

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